 | The girl behind the scene | Aug 6, 2008 |
welcome to my think, my feel, my life this is my link may525.blogspot.com.. i wont post anything in multiply d... 
this is1st time for Malaysia to have an earth hours...it was so special~~ 28 march 2009 830-930.1 hours to turn off the light. dono it is compulsory to turn off the light from ourselves or the electric will off themselves???  .....if not mistake this program is start from Australia. it just let me felt that this is the time and warning to save our earth. this few day i am very busy with my working. after finish work i am just felt very tired and no time for me to do other thing d~~~it was so exhausted. my god!! my friend 's car was get stolen by fu*ker, son of the bitch. really sad for him. here security was damn fu*king worse and bad. really hate here(M'a)~~~   work really is a boring job to do in our life...we work cos of $$, luxury life, needs and wants...i am really felt boring and meaningless. i am work in a company which is organise conference for an association or company. i will handle a project soon(but i am just part of it).i am felt worried and exited. 31st march 2009 i will stay in Berjaya Times Square hotel to run the conference. this is my 1st time,oh my god!  the conference will be end on 4th april 2009 so i need to stay in hotel for 5 day and 4 night...  sure i wil miss my housemate...i must make sure all my work is correct and cant have a mistake if not i am sure die!!! really a giood experience for me.  i am start to miss him already....miss him so much..everyday just think wat he doin and whether he got miss me or not....haiz  第一句
如果我们之间有1000步的距离
你只要跨出第1步
我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步
第二句
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
才是真正爱你的人
第三句
付出真心 才会得到真心
却也可能伤得彻底
保持距离 就能保护自己
却也注定永远寂寞
第四句
有时候 不是对方不在乎你
而是你把对方看得太重
第五句
朋友就是把你看透了 还能喜欢你的人
第六句
就算是believe 中间也藏了一个lie
第七句
真正的好朋友
并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
而是在一起 就算不说话
也不会感到尴尬
第八句
没有一百分的另一半
只有五十分的两个人
第九句
为你的难过而快乐的 是敌人
为你的快乐而快乐的 是朋友
为你的难过而难过的
就是那些 该放进心里的人
第十句
冷漠 有时候并不是无情
只是一种避免被伤害的工具
Today is my 2nd day in working. Damn tired and exhausted on my 1st day, today still ok and not that tired. That night I can’t sleep, around 3am or 4am jz sleep maybe I am fever and cough den can’t fall asleep. Fuck, everyday raining.everyday also wet wet bk home, damn it!!!
This is little work I had done today. and some report and invoice.
Recently really felt my life is black and dark + scary. Hmmm~~~tired really tired… suffer enough d. finally settle d. sad! today 20 feb 2009, 3:14am. cant sleep. i go sunshine bar at heritage row to support eve just now...hmm got a luckly draw thr...u know how lucky am i,i get a lucky draw worth RM250 form Revlon but i dint get it in the end cos i am sit up stair so i am not enough time to go down and to claim my prize so just give to others 1...fate....the thing is yours 1 den is urs....i am really suprise when the MC call my name,u know there is alot of pl thr. but the prizes is not mine in the end. haiz~~~~ i am dono wat should it say to me...luckly ? or unfortunate?
today i am msg him asking abt something, after that i am said" never mind thx". he reply me" ok u welcome" the sentences is really hurt me....really heartbreak... i am just felt he is not thinking want to solve this problem, he let me felt he already can put me down in his heart.... i am felt hurt , i am really sad...... suddenly i am felt in this world is so dark, so evil, so scary....how i am going to get bk to him? how i am going to solve our problem??? any1 can guide me? any1 can help me? god can help me? how i am going to understand him if in this 5 years he never talk with me abt his friend, family, work's stuff, himself to me. never!!! he never have a nice talk with me or should say i never have a nice talk with him. how i am going to understand him ???teach me!!! he know my thinking, my behaviour my attitude cos all the times i trying to talk with him nicely chat with him abt my thing like family, friend and my study's stuff. everything i am also let him know, who i am mingle with, who is confess on me, who ia going to approach me, i am told him everything of mine. why he cant?
why he dowan me know abt his thing,everything?is it again he will worried me will think others negative side or nonsense?then we will have a big fight or arguing thr?is an excuses?? why? a couple or lover is not should be sharing with each others,wont hiding something from each others, is not should be honest to each others?? why we will have a seriuos problem in our comunication? why we cant have a talk more than half an hours? i am a lot fo question for him d. why he ask me dont ask him so many question and ask me dont always have so many questions for him. annoyance? disturbing?
A girl wont cry easily,
Except in front of the person who she love the most, she becomes weak.
A girl wont cry easily, only when she love you the most, she put down her ego.
Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you, please hold her hands firmly,
she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.
Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you, please don’t give her up, maybe bcoz of your decision, you ruin her life.
When she cries rite in front of you,
When she cries bcoz of you,
Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?
Think.
Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,
In front of you,
And bcoz of you?
She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not bcoz she wan sympathy or pity,
She cries,
Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt, n agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside.
Guys,
Think about it,
If a girl cries her heart out to you,
And all because of you,
Its time to look back on what u have done,
Only you will know the answer to it.
Do consider it,
Coz one day,
it may be too late for regrets,
it may be too late to say "i'm sorry".
To my friends...
Ponder this message seriously.
Don’t do this to a girl,
You may regret for the rest of your life.
Maybe in your life,
she's the only one that love YOU the most.
Remember this lesson... Love can only be experienced; it can’t be explained
For all you people who say, "I love you" when you have no clue.... what love is exactly!!!
Something to ponder upon...
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??
-It isn't love, it's LIKE.
You can't keep your eyes or hands off of her, am I
right??
-It isn't love, it's LUST.
Are you proud, and eager to show her off??
-It isn't love, it's LUCK.
Do you want her because you know she's there??
-It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.
Are you with her because it's what everyone wants??
-It isn't love, it’s LOYALTY.
Are you with her because she kissed you, or held your hand?
-It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.
Do you stay for her confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt her?
-It isn't love, it's PITY.
Do you belong to her because the sight of her makes your heart skip a beat??
-It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.
Do you pardon her faults because you care about her? -It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.
Do you tell her every day she is the only one you think of?
-It isn't love, it's a LIE.
Are you willing to give up all of your favorite things for her sake?
-It isn't love, it's CHARITY. -=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-
Does your heart ache and break when she's sad?
-Then it's LOVE.
Do you cry for her pain, even when she's strong?
-Then it's LOVE.
Do her eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
-Then it's LOVE.
Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you to her?
-Then it's LOVE.
Do you accept her faults because it's a part of who she is?
-Then it's LOVE.
Are you attracted to others, but stay with her faithfully without regret??
-Then it's LOVE.
Would you give her your heart, your life, your death??
-Then it's LOVE.
Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love? Why is it all we search for in life? This pain, this agony? Why is it all we long for? This torture, this powerful death of self? Why? The answer is so simple cause it's...LOVE. It is such an addictive thing that even people who are not having it wish to experience it and share it with others as well.
Pass this to all your friends so they don't make the same mistake with their LOVE LIVES!!
I like the dreams of the future better than the history of the past...
Love hurt our feeling, but it's also the reason our soul heal. i am copy from some where~~~very meaningfull
對妳用心，希望妳能體會，對妳關心，希望妳能感動，對妳真心，希望妳能珍惜；讓妳窩心，是我的心願，讓妳開心，是我的責任，讓妳動心，是我的目標 1. 遇到你真的愛的人時 要努力爭取和他相伴一生的機會
因為當他離去時.一切都來不及了.....
2. 遇到可相信的朋友時 要好好和他相處下去
因為在人的一生中.可遇到知己真的不易
3. 遇到人生中的貴人時 要記得好好感激
因為他是你人生的轉折點
4. 遇到曾經愛過的人，記得微笑向他感激
因為他是讓你更懂愛的人
5. 遇到曾經恨過的人時 要微笑向他打招呼
因為他讓你更加堅強
6. 遇到曾經背叛你的人時要跟他好好聊一聊
因為若不是他今天你不會懂這世界
7. 遇到曾經偷偷喜歡的人時 要祝他幸福唷！
因為你喜歡他時 不是希望他幸福快樂嗎？
8. 遇到匆匆離開你人生的人時要謝謝他走過你的人生
因為他是你精采回憶的一部分
9. 遇到曾經和你有誤會的人時 要趁現在解清誤會
因為你可能只有這一次機會解釋清楚
10.遇到現在和相伴一生的人要百分百感謝他愛你
因為你們現在都得到幸福和真愛愛一個人，
要了解，也要開解； 要道歉，也要道謝；要認錯，也要改錯；要體貼，也要體諒；
是接受，而不是忍受；是寬容，而不是縱容；是支持，而不是支配；
是慰問，而不是質問；是傾訴，而不是控訴；是難忘，而不是遺忘；
是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；是為對方默默祈求，而不是向對方諸多要求；
可以浪漫，但不要浪費；可以隨時牽手， 但不要隨便分手。
Guys drink to forget about the girl...
Girls drink to think back about the guy...
When guys are in love, they become poor.
When girls are in love, they become pretty...
Guys can forget, but cannot forgive...
Girls can forgive, but cannot forget...
Guys care the most about the quantity of love...
Girls care the most about the quality of love...
Guys break-up when they feel love from another Girl...
Girls break-up when they feel the feeling of Separation from her man...
Guys feel curiosity towards all girls...
Girls feel curiosity towards guys who are Interested in her...
When guys are heartbroken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl...
When girls are heartbroken; they try to find his Characteristics from another guy...
Guys wish to be her first love....
Girls wish to be his last love... i m really hope i will be the last love for him, i am really will find the same characteristic from another guy( that is true, cos my closer friend also realize that), i am really hope he will understand me more what i want, i am really hope he will be there when i am going to some place that we never go together before, when i am eating, watching a movie, going some where i am also hope he will around me, i am really want to have a sweet moment with him the end we cant make it. why? i am really heartbreak  i know give a flower to a gf will waste his $$ but i dint request for much just 1 edi enough the main point is not the flower is the sweet thing he done for me and can let me feel sweet moment. ya give something present like watch, cloth , shoe, spec is more worth and useable but the most important is the moment u give the gift to me, can let me remember forever and not the thing is high value or not. together with u for 5 years more but even 1 flower also dint give to me. even i am is a very guy atttitude or look but the end i am also a girl, also need something that can let me keep it as my sweet memorize. we together for 5 year also maintain from a long distance relationship. when i am start together with him i am in Taiping he in Penang, but once i go penang for my study he go Kulim for working d. so until i am graduate my diploma in Penang den i am pursue my study to kl d.
when i am in penang he in kulim every weekend we also meet with each other once a week then we use to be together every weekend but now me in kl maybe we just meet once a month only. it is not really hard to have a long distance relationship, it is need some trust and faith on this. i trust him all the time until i am back from kl i am just realise he change d. he let me feel something unpresent.
haiz!!!! so sad!!! why i cant have a sweet moment with him all the time. can say 5 year and 5 month we jz have not more than 365 day is sweet moment. all the day like christmas, birthday, valentine, new year, we also never had a nice and sweet moment on that event, the end we just have an arguing. why??i am dint ask him give me anything i am just need some secure feel from him only,that it! i am just need to let him appreciate what i am done for him, ya, i am admit sometime i am really dono how to appreciate what he done for me and make him angry all the time. why we cant like others have a sweet moment ?ok he dont like to compare with others then why we cant have a nice moment when we together?even i am come bk form kl he come back from penang and we jz meet for 2 day we also can have a very serious and huge arguing there?why??my fault?? all the time once we have an arguing all the time he said is my fault is me begin this arguing.and all the moment i am remember just an unhappy moment. why???!!!! so unfair for me~~
i am really not understand him, he also not understand me, i am so curious why he so worried i will say about his bad thing to others, i wont do that ok!!! really hard to accpet such ending. hurt !!!!
hmmmm i am just wonder why some people really mind to let people know their salary??ya i know some of the common reason like feel shyness let people know when ur salary is low~~or just dont like people know how much is ur salary maybe it represent what position u hold in the company or what ability or value you have so employers just to pay for that amount...is it salary is a privacy??? but for me sure will also mind abit to let my friend know the salary. but what if he or she is ur boyfriend or girlfriend??or even ur family??? hmmm~~~
just know when i am having my class i am just chat with my classmate regarding the salary need to spend for a small family like a spouse and a child in the family. Gabriel told me that RM3k is enough for a small family .i am just said "not enough ok!!!" we both just argue that 3k need to spend for family expenses such as pay house & car fees, child's school fees, utility, insurance, fuel, car services, daily expenses such as food , supplement, what if one of them sick need to consult doc all that expenses. after he taking out his calculator and figure out the amount. oh my god!!!after minus all the neccesarry expenses still left around RM400..how come!!!! he told me everything is seeing how u spends on it. For example the car is not need so expensive 1 month just need to pay RM500++ for a car, RM 500 instalment for an apartment or terrace house, and so on. Hmm....but I am still RM3k is not enough even for a person. Oh my god!!! U see, don’t say a person have a family, for those just spend on individual also not that enough la~~~~for my point of view la... maybe I too very pandai in spending d lo~~~ so not enough for me....hmm really after he calculate all the expenses I am really unbelievable RM 3k is enough for a family??? After I am bringing out this topic to my roommate she also says not enough too lo~~~wakaka!!! I am really feel that I am really bad~too pandai simply spend on rubbish d~~haha!!!!!
this is my curently look, but now is more fat than this pic d. 
this style of hair wig is more pretty + suitable for me or the other 1? i want a gorgeous + elegant look.  i don't like cute style. this is more suit me or the other??
available for 2 color .one is black the other 1 is dark brown. ??i think i will choose dark brown. what do u all think???
i am just feel like want to buy a short hair wig. i am quit a long time never have a short hair d. i think since i am standard 5 i am edi kept my hair long until now, about 7 or 8 years d..i am really feel boring with my hair style d but i am no dare to cut it short. the reason is i am know my face is very fat and round so i cant have a short hair.
i am really damn fat now. i am just think want to buy a slimming pills. recently the market come out with 1 new slimming pills the brands name is called NH X-tummy. it stated that got so good and so nice and so effective. just abit convince me to buy it. but quit a lot of people ask me don't consume such pills. it is not good for our kidney, baby, whole body lo....but i am jz think if got so many problem why health of ministry in Malaysia approved and allowed this pills??? have any others pills or methods to intro me to slim down?? i don't want heard anymore all abt the exercise, do more work out, swimming, eat less,yoga, consume more water+fruit+vege, consume less fat oil food + carbohydrate food and those food make us fat....cos i am edi do all the thing mention above. plss...it is not effective for me also....so pls~~~other than that still have other methods to let me slim down??? my current weight is 47kg but my height is only 155cm..damn ~~~!!!!! so fat u know...+ me damn short...sad!!! i want my weight become 40 or 41kg....u know my roomate just 40 or 41kg only + her height is 160cm ok!!!!u see!!!!!how fat am i????haiz so i must slim down...i am also don't want too slim la because i am feel not pretty if too slim d. don't ask me go slimming center now because i am dont have $$$ to go for such expensive slimming center.xixix!!!when i am working maybe i will go to slimming center, but now cant..cos i am still a student don't have income some more.
if i consume slimming pills other than worried abt health i am also worried that slimming pills will make my breast become small also....because women breast also contain fat. haiz~~~ so confusing with that!! sien!! sien ah~!!!!
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.oh my god !!!!the problem is that i don't know how to go Maxis tower to interview man!!!! oh my god!!oh my god!! this is my 1st time to interview for a proper job~~!!!ya la!!even just an internship for me but it is still need a proper prepare for this interview wert~~!!!what should i am do to done my perfect interview leh!!!??
The moon and the star is smiling at me...it is real~~~oh my god!! after that, using Ai Wen's hand phone to took down the picture...
... i don't know what happen to him again?? Blow off steam at me..Hem!!!!!
That time I am really felt sad! and hurt! After that he message me said that he is in meeting will call me later...in the meeting also no need so fierce la!!!!~
